Sunday, February 7, 2010

work challenge

Half year end of 2009 had been challenging but I managed fairly well. Despite being new in student affairs department I have a reasonably well understanding of what student affairs management is all about. With a resourceful boss, a very supportive all-student leader and motivation from colleague-friends my spirit and enthusiasm were sky high. The 3 papers we worked on student centre, student sports centre and students transports (bus and van) were through and approved. God gave me a son..much more than what I asked for..alhamdulillah. Few student leaders with the right frame-of-mind appeared and helped the new student orientation program. Very encouraging.

I thought I started well in 2010. The training model on student leadership and teamwork which the trainer, student leader and me worked on works. A new horizon of positive and exemplary bunch of students emerged. Thanks to almighty Allah. Next the MTS was so near to success but I had spoiled it..I had broken my own all-these-while DTA principle.. As a result I paid a high price for it.. a substantial amount of my cash, dignity and I crushed the FMTS leader's faith in me..huhu.. The pain is too much to bear alone..

Then stinks caused by some skunks appeared one after another. Those unblessed souls were searching for white souls as slaves for their own selfish agenda. I pity those skunks and the 'naives' but decided those we not my problems since those skunks were there long before me. My sifu had taught me well 'once a skunk always a skunk'.

I am glad that I was holding tight to the Quran in those challenging moments. Surah 16:119-128. Allah has shown me his love and blessings in kinds..subhanallah. I still hold to the principle "If thing can go right, it should" but with some changes to suit my 'new path'..(smile)

Sunday, December 27, 2009

me on marg-cann team mgmt wheel

I practice what I prefer and hope become more proficient at it which in turn gives me pleasure from my work.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

an engagement of two hearts made in heaven

It is just like yesterday she was a little girl.. jalan-jalan jatuh.. nenex got to tatehkan dia atas rumput pagi yang masih berembun.. mulut yang sentiasa tersumbat dengan punting pacifier.. dan muka yang comot makan cheeseburger di a n w drive inn. Today she is a full-grown young lady.. beautiful.. intelligent.. berani, cekap.. and sentiasa sibuk kerja (part ni sounds like her usu).

On this christmas day, she is being wooed by her beloved prince.. how lucky for both.. and i am happy for them..

Dance like no one is watching
Sing like no one is listening
Love like you've never been hurt
Live like it's Heaven on Earth
A dream that is dreamed by two
Will always come true

Sunday, November 29, 2009

aina's godsister got engaged

When aina was still tiny and until she became a toddler, she was babysitted by her godmother, Puan Norizam whom aina affectionately called 'mak' (aina calls me mama). Ayu, (Pn Norizam's only daughter)) became aina's godsister or rather her 'sister' whom both had never had. Ayu loves her, disciplined her and pampered her. So does her father, En Sulaiman (godfather) whom aina referred to as bapak (aina calls dh babah). Apart from them, aina has abang Jim and abang Nik as godbrothers. The distance between our homes is four houses apart which had made easy for aina to escape my disciplinarian routine.

Ayu is a daughter whom all mothers had hoped for. She is a good mannered, intelligent and responsible girl. On this engagement occasion, I pray that Allah will bless ayu with kindness and love.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

mak's lonesome eid adha


Mak has 6 grandchildren. Only 1 (her eldest grandson) visited her during edul adha (apart from her youngest granddaughter who  stays with mak). Her eldest granddaughter is studying in Bristol, with her grandson-in-law and her only greatgranddaughter. Mak's 2nd granddaughter attended her bf's sister's wedding in Kulim accompanied by her 3rd granddaughter. Mak's youngest grandson is studying in Hamilton. Mak's only son is performing haj in Mecca. So does her daughter-in-law. Mak's only daughter is with her. So does her son-in-law.

Maybe next year mak will have everyone celebrating the raya with her..

Friday, November 27, 2009

rindu meamor dan lambaian kaabah di edul adha

Tahun ini tahun kedua, musim raya keempat tanpa putera tercinta di sisi. Hanya kasih sayang, doa dan skype di pagi raya yang mampu mententeramkan rindu, sebak dan pilu... Mana ada insan yang ada iman di hatinya yang tidak berasa rindu pada Kaabah...Edul Adha tahun ini sangat meruntun kerinduan pada putera dan Baitullah. Semoga Allah mengizinkan lagi percutian bersama putera tercinta dan kunjungan insan kerdil ini ke Mekah pada tahun hadapan... insya Allah..

aslam on mbti

Without introverted intuitives, it is said that Israel would have had no prophets. Under deceptively conventional appearances lie perceptive minds that travel the breadth and depth of universal mysteries, contemplating its multilayered complexity, seeking the trends that will define the future. With time, clarity of vision comes. When it comes, they are propelled towards the vision and all their actions lead to it. They are perseverant behind a quiet exterior and will often come back with their vision long after everyone believes they have let it go.

What they see is so clear and obvious to them they are often surprised to find that others cannot see it as well. They may find it difficult to articulate the necessary steps towards implementation or to explain how each goal fits into the larger picture.

Their mind usually travels from the past to the future, seeking to fit a particular situation in a large context. It picks up patterns, symbols and images from different seemingly unrelated fields, identifies similarities and provides meaning. This can help solve problems by juxtaposing ideas, finding analogies or simply by rooting out the quintessential reality, discovering the origin in universal stories and human experiences, culling wisdom from the infinitely small to the infinitely large. Their mind naturally travels from the microcosm to the macrocosm.

They regularly have to face the difficulties of bringing dreams into reality. The time and effort it takes is always more than what their intuition initially suggested. They are determined, perseverant, inspired and often see things just around the corner, into the near or far future.


Friday, November 20, 2009


When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill.
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns.
And many a fellow turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man.
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup.
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt.
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar.
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.


Sunday, November 15, 2009

attended a wedding by lake titiwangsa

I have always enjoyed attending dh's family and relatives' gatherings. Although I am an 'in-law', all the time they made me feel welcome as part of the family. I enjoyed the teasings, jokes and laughters - they are all still the same (i've been married to dh and known his big families for more than 20 years!). Doctors, engineers, businessmen, accountants, lecturers, teachers, drivers, odd-jobbers, pensioners etc etc are all behaving alike - full of humbleness and ukhwah. I very much hope meamor and his generation will follow suit.. no matter what their backgounds are and how far their distance apart..

And when its time for us to leave for home..while waiting for Aina who strolled around the lake.. I became the subject of dh's photography!

doaku mengiring...

my cuteprincess is eleven on 6 nov ..

 aina.. the taekwondo kid..

she is a rare and priceless treasure..
who brings special happiness..

Saturday, November 14, 2009

we had joy we had fun we had seasons in the sun..

(back row) mun mooi, mrs teh, wai ling, mooi kwai, mrs hanif loke, azirah, me, yati, cheok giam, kalsom, wei foonf, carolyn & gaik leng 
(front) rose chay, siew leng and kwee ling

"It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson
New Friends and Old Friends
By Joseph Parry

Make new friends, but keep the old;
Those are silver, these are gold.
New-made friendships, like new wine,
Age will mellow and refine.
Friendships that have stood the test -
Time and change - are surely best;
Brow may wrinkle, hair grow gray,
Friendship never knows decay.
For 'mid old friends, tried and true,
Once more we our youth renew.
Cherish friendship in your breast-
New is good, but old is best;
Make new friends, but keep the old;
Those are silver, these are gold

when will i see you again..

remembering a beloved teacher

I was hardly fifteen.. being cared and loved by a new teacher.. somebody i have never known before. All the love, guidance, presents, attention she has given me, sacrifices she has made for me and her loving memories can never be matched till now and which I can never repay.. she even addressed herself as mama.. how touching..

How ingratitude and naive I was to just let go and forgotten them all these while.. it takes only now (so long after) for me to really understand and appreciate.. sorry so much cikgu maria .. but there were other unavoidable circumstances also..

It is my wish now that we will meet again.. i just met my old friends (cikgu maria's other students).. they helped me to realize it.. i am now in student affairs dealing with students of adolescent age.. and one has made me realized it..

God has given me such a lot.. i should be giving out some also..

These are some memories linked to cikgu maria.. so sweet and beautiful..

One of cikgu maria's poem which i still can memorize which carries a lot of pain inside..

ku titip pesan surat rindu pada angin menderu

Sunday, November 1, 2009

housemaid arrived

What a relief when the housemaid finally arrived. Though it means a tight purse, but I am in dire need of :

meamor ngigau skype

Its 8.30pm malaysia and still early in Canada - 8.30am. Meamor skyped lying from his bed... "mama boleh nanti postkan perencah dan rempah. Hari itu masak ikan talapia fresh giler...." He asked me again "mama apa dia ikan jenahak in english?". I do not know and humbly replied "ntah mama tak tahu, apa dia?". Meamor said "its golden snapper. mama tak tau sebab you are not canadian!". Poyo betul budak ni... And he went to sleep again... Or he ngigau ke ape?...

I promised to dhl him his favourite famous amos, chilli sauce and some herbs and various pastes and gravies. If he ngigau i wonder if he will remember these when he awakes.

where am i?

Only child

An only child is a child with no siblings, either biological or adopted. Although first-born children may be considered temporary only children, and have a similar early family environment, the term only child is generally applied only to those individuals who never have siblings. An "only child", however may have half-siblings or step-siblings who come along considerably late (after he/she turns, say, 12) and still be considered an "only child". Children with much older siblings may also have a similar family environment to only children.

Families may have an only child for a variety of reasons, including: family planning, including financial and emotional or physical health issues, stress in the family, time constraints, fears over pregnancy, advanced age, infertility, personal preferences, and death of a sibling. Additionally, some parents decide to have only one child because they simply prefer it that way. Under the the One-child policy in Mainland China, subject to local relaxations, urban parents are prohibited by law to have more than one child.

In Western culture, only children are often subject to a stereotype that equates them with spoiled brats.

Birth order

is a person's rank by age among his or her siblings. Typically, researchers classify siblings as “eldest”, “middle child”, and “youngest” or simply distinguish between “firstborn” and “later born” children.
Birth order is commonly believed in pop psychology and popular culture to have a profound and lasting effect on psychological development and personality. For example, firstborns are seen as conservative and high achieving, middle children as natural mediators, and youngest children as charming and outgoing. In his book Born to Rebel, Frank Sulloway argues that firstborns are more conscientious, more socially dominant, less agreeable, and less open to new ideas compared to laterborns. Literature reviews that have examined many studies and attempted to control for confounding variables tend to find minimal effects for birth order on personality. [4][5] In her review of the scientific literature, Judith Rich Harris suggests that birth order effects may exist within the context of the family of origin, but that they are not enduring aspects of personality. [6]
Some research has found that firstborn children have slightly higher IQs on average than later born children. [7] However, other research finds no such effect. [8]

What is the personality of a child if she could be categorized not only as only, but also firstborn and also the youngest when/but she also has sisters and brothers? Unpredictable.

sedih dan luka - seasonal affective disorder?

I read my eldest niece's blog a while ago and i feel deeply sad. Looking back, my life is quite full of sad stories and one of them is associated with my sibling huhuhu. But I have always - "Life is short - it's been a great reminder to not take life or myself so seriously" and my life goes on the way it is now. I pray to Allah that both my brother and SIL will successfully perform their mabrur haj. Amen.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

jejak kasih

I haven't seen many of my friends for many many years, partly my fault for not making the effort. Recently facebook has helped me in menjejak kasih for Azirah, Kalsom, Juneta, Jasmin (sis of Juneta), Yati and Puteri (and perhaps many more). I am eagerly looking forward to meet them .... this time I shall find the time dear friends....

Monday, October 26, 2009

miss brilliant

(gambar hiasan sahaja)

My Little Red Car 

I have a little red car,
that fits five quite comfortably,
but members of my family
when shopping think I drive a lorry.
The thing is that they think
it will take them as well,
would you believe.
I do not know where they got the notion
that if you push the back seat down
you can carry triple the amount.
In a minute if they keep going
I will be driving through the sunroof
as there will not be any room
for me in my little red car

by david harris

Sunday, October 25, 2009

meamor skyped on his trip to webster

Meamor skyped at 4am malaysian time on his visit to webster falls today. He said it was marvelous and he enjoyed every bit of it. I think he deserved to be off hook with books for a while. He had just undergone a 2-week hectic schedule with assignments, projects and tests.  He has gone thinner in 2 weeks due to living on "sarapan roti, lunch roti and dinner roti tak sempat masak" kind of menu.

He asked me "mama nape waktu macam ni tak tidor lagi?". Suddenly I realized that my haywire sleeping time started with his departure to canada and it has gotten worse since I joined HEP.